Here I sit. Writing my first ever blog. I know. I’m a little late to the party. I have thought about and rejected the idea of blogging for years. Mostly, I have avoided blogging because I know myself too well. I know I struggle from a lack of discipline. And I’m vain. There, I said it. My own vanity has kept me from attempting to start a blog these past decades because I don’t want you all to see me start something and not keep up with it. I fear public failure. I dread the shame of falling on my face yet again by my lack of follow-through.
Putting those fears aside, I’m diving in. Something stronger than fear is motivating me. I need to make changes to my life. I need to bring myself back to a state of health. I’ve made a plan to start a journey toward physical, mental, emotional and spiritual fitness. And I need accountability to stick to it. This blog is my form of accountability.
Why now? Well, I’ve recently been blindsided by a family tragedy strong enough to knock me to the ground and leave me gasping for breath as the world spins out of control and I descend into the darkness. (I’ll write more on that later.) What little I was doing to maintain a healthy life came to a screeching halt. I stopped caring about myself. I stopped following healthcare plans. I stopped maintaining a disciplined work schedule. I didn’t care whether I lived or died.
I’m now ready to climb out of my hole, out of the darkness. I’m read to live life in the light.
I’ve made a plan. It starts with a schedule. I tell my kids often, “If it’s not on the calendar, it isn’t real.” So to the calendar I go. In order to address each of the four areas of health I’ve mentioned, I’ve blocked off times in my day for life-giving activities.
For physical health – exercise.
For mental health – writing.
For emotional health – personal Bible study and journaling.
For spiritual health – worship and prayer.
Each week, I will blog on my progress. I’ll share what I discover in my travels towards the light. I’ll confess when I stumble in the darkness. And I hope, that in this exercise in transparency, I can bring encouragement and light to others like me, to those who stumble in the darkness.
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I’m in as a follower. I love your writing style and I’m eager to read more! Tamara Krantz, thank you!
Thank you Bronwyn. I am hopeful that this will prove fruitful for my followers as well as myself.
Love it !!
I’m with you sis! You are braver than I am. To put yourself out there and be vulnerable is a hard thing to do. To expose your heart and life to judgement and comment is heroic. I pray that this journey will give you peace though. Know that I am here and I am listening. Always!
Thank you. I don’t feel particularly brave but I shall try to live up to the compliment.
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